Is been a while that I didn’t write/tell what I have been thru for the last couple of week. It could be my mood to write it all down everyday…plus with all the internet relationship that I not really into it right now.. is all *rubbish*….There Ben, Brandon, Ted…..all are the past..didnt think about it anymore. I still chatting with the other..once in a while, cos I feel bore chatting with them…I have nothing to do with them…I just want friends that it…nothing more… That all I’m going to say.
Now I want to concentrate more on myself… I need self improvement…. My sub conscious mind…… After see the tarot card on Tuesday night (24th Aug) with Lily…I need some chances…. She told me that I have a lot of negative thought.. that what Lily told me when I told her about Ted…. Ask me not to think so much.. maybe he busy that he didn’t call.. but in my mind I know is a fake..what ever things he told me.. anyway is over now..
The next day.. I talk to Zul about Joseph Murphy books…about sub conscious mind.. he share his story to me… and from this day onward…i feel relieved.. and I think of something useful to do and I use my mind to tell me what to do… He ask me what I want most in life or something to do?? I told him I need to do business… but I need to think about the other things as well.. like model, location and the long term of it.. I told him bout with I want … I did print out some articles from Joseph Murphy…a books call Believe In Yourself… I read a couple of line..and I find it useful and to learn something new. From there I have some thing that I intend to do is exercise.. I don’t want to do it but my mind ask to wake up early in the morning to do it…..