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Another weekend….

Out with Lam to watch movie “toy story 3” at MBO. The movie is nice.. then heading home. Bout 7pm going to Popular at JJ with Pui Yee, then going to ‘tau pau’ at mamak store…nasi pataya..and nasi goreng kampung..sedap and wangi pula..
At night chat with these online guys, a lot all the sudden..
Sun..normally didnt go out but Lily is bore, so I go out with her, actually to JJ but lot of ppl, so she told me bout Ocean.. the though is to drink root beer float at A & W , but sudah tutup..*sigh*
Online for a while chat with Robert in the evening + night time. Bernice send me a msg..ask me to call her 2morow at the hospital…

Poems

^^From this Moment^^

I may have implied to you
in my letters many years ago.
How my heart wants and needs you
But you didn’t recognize
‘coz there’s so many around you
But I was just there on one side
Waiting for my chance
to show how much I love you

And now, knowing how you felt
Somehow eases the pain in my heart
Knowing I really have a place in your heart
Made me feel I should have insisted the feelings
I have for you, and should not keep it inside

Now that I have the chance
to show how much I love you
How much my heart wants and needs you
This is the moment in time that
I will not let this pass without being with you

From this moment,
I will love you as long as I live
I will caress and hold you
And make love to you all through out the nights that I am with you
For my dreams came true because of YOU

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^^Faithfully^^

Look deep inside me, can you see the flame
It burns so bright, it burns only for you
It’ll never fade, forever it will always remain
Faithfully it will always be true

Lay your hand on me, feel my heart beat
To your voice, to your gentle caress
This heart is yours with a love so sweet
Faithfully my love you I’ll always confess

Look into my eyes, where your soul lives
See the emotions stirring that I can’t control
Feel its strength, feel the passion it gives
Faithfully I’ll cherish your soul

Enter my dreams, journey through my mind
And fly with me freely in our own place
Where all our troubles will be left behind
As I faithfully I’ll hold you in my embrace

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Empty

Feeling so hurt, so lost and alone
Feelings left on the floor in pieces
Shattered dreams, now I’m on my own
Won’t be long til my heart increases

Empty….is what I am without you
Empty….forever now without you

My mind’s restless, my mind spinning around
Never thought I’d see the day, you’d walk away
Leaving my heart in pieces all over the ground
I know I will never be the same, never be okay

Empty….is what I am without you
Empty….forever now without you

I feel my soul dying, soon the tears will fall
Down my face like falling rain, pouring rain
Cries so loud, angels will hear there call
For so many years from a broken heart in pain

Empty….is what I am without you
Empty….forever now without you

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My week

Boss, going down to KL..but they come back early about lunch time, but lucky he didn’t come up to office. Going out with Ila to get lunch, online in the afternoon..chat with the Dr Robert, Bradon and Dee Moore and everyone wanted me to on my cam. I only chat with Robert but since I’m on it…so I don’t mind at all.
So, do tues..online 2 chat with Robert and Bradon as well. He also want me to on my cam too. I like to chat with him and now he consider me as his future wife. I only chat with him for a couple of time, so fast he fall for me.. I’m too attractive, lol /he like me to who I am.
At night Lily come to look for me, so I tell her bout those guys. Davis also chat with me but I’m not going to do what he want me too..*dangerous*
He didn’t online on wed.. but I chat with other ppl..at night too..really bore but I’m tired though.
Thur also bore, boss come in the morning, he going out for lunch then come back to finish up his things- Dan also here, he took my broadband to submit his income tax, but I ask whether he ant to use it again otherwise I wanted to use it. I so boring at noon, chat with Bradon, Zainuddin and some1 else. Dr Robert is not here for me..a bit upset. Zainuddin call me but I didn’t answer at first cos some1 was here but I call him back after I check who’s hp was that…
Going home late, heng want to send me to SCB to apply for loan.. going to the Store supermarket- mum wanted to get something. Online for an hours chat with 2 new guys. Dr Robert chat for a while but my line is bad..so I off it, but he said I left him *lol*
Friday- boring too, nothing much to do.. but I just type client name convienence for him to make who to send..beside that I chat with Robert..guess what he call me, we chat for awhile and we also on cam..his English is hard for me to listen..haha!!!! he told me I have a sweet voice..geez*blush*blush*
Send him an sms but no reply..but he send me an offline msg.

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Myweek…at putrajaya

Friday going to putrajaya for the career fair..for 3 days. Boss pick me up in the office. Then we going for breakfast at Loh Yau Kee… Call Lam, inform her that I oledi make appointment for her to see Dr Intan at noon. We start our journey at 9am, boss using the Labu road, so we dont have to go thru highway. When we almost reach, the person in charge call boss, why we havent been there yet? need to do set up early.we see lot of ppl arriving at the venue. We done all the set up, then this KL agent is here.. his name is Kenji…he’s good when he talk with ppls. Dan Ooi come for a while to look at the place, we have Kebab for our lunch. Smsing Lam or call her, cos I really bore mah..dont know what to do…eventhough we meet lot of ppl from ONE Community. I really like that place is beautiful there.. maklumlah, first time kat situ.. i didnt walk around this day..there have this 1M international dragon boat festival..today is for local..but on weekend is for international one. we going off at 4.30pm, since i havent been there before, boss bring me around putrajaya…is building is really beautiful and nice. I told them, that im going to bring my camera.
In the evening, chat with Robert..he asking me so many question and go on cam..we did chat for quite some time.
On sat..Dan come an pick me up at 8.10am, going to boss hse, then we going for breakfast, cos we dont want to be late.
We do all the set up.. nothing much to do as well, but i do see lot of Mat Salleh walking around..havent got a chance to meet some1 ..*sad isn’t* I give Lam a call..tell her seen lot of english ppl, ask me to take photo of them…haha!!!! I bring my camera to walk around and take photo of the place although is quite far but the out come is not bad. Meet Ms Wong from One community, ask her to company me to have a walk, near the lake side and she helping me to take a photo of myself there.THen i heading back to the booth…where the 2 other KL agents is here. Ask Dan to walk around with me again.. Then this Ms Wong asking me and Foong to try on the machine, for 20 min, unfortunity i make the cushion dirty..god is so embarrassing. well of course Dan seen it..that why he told boss that i dont feel well. I going to the washroom after the incident, call Lam bout it too…that was almost 1.30pm, the opening ceremony is going to be start soon.at 2pm. They have dancing from other participant. I took lot of photo of them. Boss call when i didnt go back,ask me whether im sick, then he say that Dan Ooi, is going to buy us lunch, but he still not here yet. I enjoy those ppl there, i didnt go back till he call again at 3pm. I feel hungry oledi, though i doesn’t want to go but my stomach is not good loh.. After i went back to booth, the rain started…
After the rain stop, the ceremony still get going and I still walking around taking photo.. Boss ask me whether i want to come again on sun, but i ask, what if i dont, so he agree that i dont have to go… yea..yea.Thank to Dan..who tell boss that i dont feel well.
we all start packing at 4pm and heading home, Dan send me home.
Relax on sun, that was great..going to hair saloon to have my hair do for dinner in the evening

Poems

I love the Way…

I love the way you hold me
and make me feel safe
I love the way you care about your family
and the amount of love you have to give
I love the way you always help people
even when it’s inconvenient for you
I love the way you are so enthusiastic
about helping me
I love the way you’re so passionate
and persistent about doing what you love
I love the way you make me feel like
the most beautiful woman on earth
I love the way you’re very down to earth
and easy going
I love the way you perceive life
and what you want out of it
I love the way you make me laugh
even when I don’t think it’s possible
I love the way look into my eyes and kiss me
I love the way your smile makes me smile
I love the way you need me close when we lay
I love the way you’re so sweet,
but willing to defend me against all odds
I love the way your forehead crinkles
when you’re frustrated or confused
I love the way you show love
by recognizing the little things
I love the way you love me
I love everything about you

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Melting the Ice Queen – Chapter 20

That was it for the talking.
Thank God. Alicia was pretty sure there wasn’t an unexposed corner of her soul left.
Scott ripped the linens back and laid her on the bed, where she settled her head against the pillows and stared at him. Never looking away, he shrugged out of his shirt and yanked the undershirt over his head.
There he was, as perfect a male as she could ever hope to see, and she’d missed this view. Though he wasn’t too bulky, he had the squared, hard shoulders of a man who paid his dues at the gym. His arms were cut, the slabs of his chest defined. His belly was toned and flat. One of these days, when she had time and wasn’t blinded by lust, she’d have to count and see if he really did have a six-pack.
Bending at the waist, but still maintaining eye contact, he shoved down his trousers and boxers to reveal a thatch of black hair and a jutting, ruddy erection that made her hips squirm with impatience.
“God, Scott,” she breathed. “Take it easy on me, okay?”
A wicked light sparked to life in his eyes. “You did this to me.” Taking himself in hand, he crawled over her, eased between her thighs and yanked her down with his free hand until she was flat on her back. “Besides.” He dipped his head to bite her, hard, on the curve of her neck and shoulder, making her cry out with delight. “You don’t want me to take it easy, do you?”
“No.”
With that, she wrapped one leg around his waist, spreading herself open wider, and he took full advantage. Rubbing the head of his penis through her hot juices, lubricating them both, he thrust inside her, filling her to a breaking point that teetered between sweet friction and delicious pain.
Then he stilled, making her pant and writhe.
“Don’t.” Digging her nails into that high, round ass of his, she demanded more. Now. The swelling ache between her thighs demanded it. “Don’t tease me. You know I need it hard.”
“Maybe.” A tremble began in his arms as he settled over her.
“Please.” She raked her nails up his back. “Please.”
That did it. With a raw groan, he began to work her, thrusting deeper and deeper. With each sharp pump of his hips, he hit the exact right spot, harder and harder, and she swiveled her own hips in a frantic counterpoint until…
“Scott.” The rippling pleasure began in her belly, mushrooming to a piercing crescendo that made her spine arch backwards even as she held him in a death grip with her legs. “Ah, Scott.”
He was right there with her, shouting out his release after another punishing thrust or two. His body turned to warm marble in her hands, rigid and unmoving for several luscious seconds. And then he collapsed on top of her, threatening to crush her with the slick deadweight of his sweaty body.
She loved it. “Mmm.”
Against her neck, she felt the curve of his cheek as he grinned. Then he lifted his head to pin her with that gaze, which was a little glazed but otherwise as sharp as ever. “You never answered my question.”
“We can’t possibly have anything left to talk about.”
“Don’t try to evade. Back at the party, you said you had to be with me, and I asked you what that looked like. You never answered.”
Taking his beloved face between her palms, she gave him everything.
“It looks like you and me getting married and having children. Okay?”
He grinned with such utter happiness that he almost glowed. “Hell, yeah, it’s okay. It was all part of my plan.”
The End

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Melting the Ice Queen – Chapter 19

Was that it? Was that, in twenty-five words or less, the fanged and poisonous dragon that’d kept him from getting too close to Alicia this whole time? Something as simple—and ridiculous—as that?
The belief was real, though. He could see the living proof of it in her troubled eyes as she awaited his judgment. He wanted to laugh, it was so crazy, but that wouldn’t give her the reassurance she needed. So he focused instead on finding the zipper at the back of her sexy black dress and sliding it down. Only when he’d slid the silk off her shoulders and to the floor, revealing all her glorious brown skin and the bounty still hidden by a black strapless bra and lacy black panties, did he speak again.
“Who, baby?” He traced lazy circles with his fingers, running them between her shoulder blades, down her back and up her sides, enjoying the curves of her wide hips as they narrowed to her waist. “Who leaves?”
“My father left. He went to the bar for a drink one day and never came back.”
“What made him leave?” He pressed this whispered question directly into her ear because it was too absurd to say aloud. Anyone who voluntarily left Alicia was clearly insane, and that was the end of the matter as far as he was concerned.
“I think I had something to do with it,” she confessed. “I know it’s silly, but I loved him and I drove him crazy because I was a handful—”
“Shh.” He’d meant to let her get it all out, but it was so patently illogical on so many levels that the lawyer in him just couldn’t take it. “So, I remind you of him? Is that it? I’m just like him?”
This caught her by surprise. “Of course not. You’re nothing like—”
“Exactly.”
She blinked.
“Wasn’t your father a raging alcoholic? Wasn’t he divorced three times? Isn’t it possible that he was the problem, rather than you?”
She almost smiled. “Of course, Johnnie Cochran. When you say it like that—”
“Good girl.” Now she was starting to understand. “Can I tell you what I love about you?”
Alicia stilled. Maybe she couldn’t believe there was anything lovable about her, and for that he hated her father for the damage he’d done.
“I love this.” He tapped her temple, behind which sat her clever brain. “I love this.” Smoothing her plump lower lip with his thumb, he stole another quick kiss and then ran his tongue down the smooth column of her neck while she moaned and tipped her head back for him.
“I love these.” Unhooking her bra, he let her breasts bounce free. They were full and heavy with desire, just the way he liked them, her nipples jutting and dark—perfect blackberries waiting for his mouth to suck, and suck hard.
Squeezing them together, he traced one areola with his tongue, then the other, driving her higher until with a hoarse cry, she grabbed his head and pulled him closer. Was that a request? He sucked each one in turn, popping them out of his mouth after just enough of a scrape with his teeth to make her gasp his name.
“I love this.” He palmed her ass, grinding his erection—God, he was dying here—against that sweet spot between her legs. Were her panties still on? Time to change that. Taking all the time in the world, he slid the lace down those shapely legs and helped her step out of them. Then, while he was stooped over, he rubbed his face against that black triangle of springy curls, enjoying her helpless arch against him. “I really love this,” he murmured.
The delicious musk coming from that slick cleft made him run headlong into his limit. He had to get inside her. Just as soon as he told her this last thing.
“You know what else I love?”
“No.” She shook her head, those crystal tears sparkling in her eyes again.
“I love it that you actually believe your rules and fears and doubts would ever keep me away from you. Or that I’d ever let you go and try to find someone else. You don’t really believe that nonsense, do you?”
He stared, unsmiling, into her face, and waited for her to get it.
Comprehension dawned. With one surprised “Oh,” she smiled and cried at the same time, letting one perfect tear slide down her cheek.
He licked it away.
Then he swung her off her feet and carried her to the bed.

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Melting the Ice Queen – Chapter 18

Scott took her home, to her house.
They didn’t talk in the car. The things they still needed to discuss couldn’t be said while hurtling down the highway. As though he knew this intermission would allow her anxieties to bubble inside her, gaining strength, he held tight to her hand the whole time. And she clung to him, knowing that with Scott, if no one else, she didn’t have to be afraid.
With Scott she was, finally, safe.
The huge tank of tropical fish glowed a soothing blue as they turned into the bedroom, illuminating her giant four poster with its downy pillows and duvet. All she wanted was to be in there, with him, forever. But she knew she hadn’t earned that right quite yet.
Wrapping his strong hands around her face, he massaged her nape, melting away what she really hoped was the last of her inhibitions. In a clear effort to make it impossible for her to do anything other than relax, he rested his lips against her forehead and murmured to her in a calming voice that was like the stroke of velvet across her skin.
“Tell me again,” he said.
“I love you.” It was so much easier like this—with whispers in the shadows, the gentle glide of his hands down the curve of her spine, and the warm satin of his flesh beneath her fingertips when she untucked his shirt and undershirt and reached for his skin. “I love you.”
Those tender lips of his began a slow descent, running from her temple to her cheek, across the bridge of her nose, and finally, sweetly, to her lips. Angling his head just enough, his growing desire rumbling deep inside his chest, he tasted her with his tongue. Just a little. Just enough for her spiraling lust to collect in the tips of her swollen breasts and curl into the farthest depths of her belly. Clenching her thighs together against the insistent ache, she surged into him, but he pulled back.
Distracting her with his busy hands, which squeezed the halves of her butt together, rubbing her against an erection so hard and thick she doubted she could handle it all, he zeroed in for the kill.
“Why is it so hard for you to give me that? Don’t you know how happy it makes me? I would do anything for you.” Another stroke of his hands…a thrust of his hips…a lick of his tongue against her mouth and… Oh, God, he was going to make her come before they’d even taken off their clothes. “Anything. Why can you give me your body but not your feelings?”
Pausing in her desperate quest to undo all his buttons and get this shirt off him, she waited for her throat to close up. It didn’t. Together with him, like this, it was impossible for the fear to get her.
“Because,” she said helplessly. “I drive men away. If I love them, they leave me. And I never want you to leave me.”